So Little Progress

I have the habit of announcing books before it’s time for them to be announced. I do the same with book covers – they definitely shouldn’t have been announced or revealed yet, or even made yet, but here we are.

February was a busy month for me – between posting more on our social medias, writing posts, and creating a discord server – I found out that I’m losing my hair again, I found out that I have to travel to London for a two hour conference (as if my anxiety wasn’t bad enough getting the bus to work on a morning<dying inside with anxiety but excitement>), and I also didn’t get paid from my day job… And that’s just the half of it.
It’s not that I don’t want to wear wigs, it’s not that I don’t want to go to London, and it’s not that I want to be paid (of course I want to be paid) – it’s just stress upon stress with an added layer of stress that is seriously causing issues for me now.

I’ve been working on My Name is Riley since January 16th. There isn’t a daily progress metre because most of the time, there isn’t daily progress – why? Because I have a day job, because I have to travel three plus hours a day on a rickety bus where I can barely hold my phone still, let alone my chromebook.

It’s not that I don’t want to write, it’s just a case of not being able to. Most of the time, when I get chance to write, it’s at 2 AM when I’ve woken up to a night terror.

Or when I’m off of work on a weekend, which really didn’t happen this weekend as I fell asleep for the most of it… But that it was I anticipated, to be honest.
I think my next time that I’m going to get to write, for longer than five minutes, is probably going to be Friday as I head to London… I’ll have my laptop, I’ll be on a train rather than a bus, and I’ll be alone. That should give me at least five hours – there and back – for me to write.

Then I have the weekend, which I’m hoping I can write on, too. But I suppose we’ll see about that.

So, what’s the progress? I wrote four pages… Which is pathetic, really…
I can bust out fifty plus pages a day when I have the time, but I ended up being unable to get ten out over a month.

Hopefully, after this month, it will be okay – I just need a tad more time to write.

~Teddy